So i can end my life

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So I sit here
wondering
where are my tears

I need a good cry
so then maybe
I won’t feel I need to die

Everything is such a mess
so I will now
put my knife to the test

Slide it across my skin
release my pain
that’s deep with in

I don’t think I can find
a single person
that understands my mind

I want to hold drew
I just wanna hear u say
"Amanda I love u"

I just can’t take this life
so here I go again
grabbing my shiny knife

I don’t care anymore
I will cut
make it deeper then before

I will carve Ur name in my arm
then they will see
u didn’t save me from harm

U promised me that u would
but u didn’t
but I tried on my own as hard as I could

I will now just go and die
because I can tell
"I love u" was just a lie

There is no one that cares for me
I know that now
I finally see

People say u move of from a love
sure
but for a broken heart
trust me there is no cure

I have been searching for it
but all I find is more pain
I give up I quit

there u go death
u have won
no I take my last breath

I just cant take it anymore
so just leave me here
bleeding on the floor

I don’t think u wanna see
all the pain
I cause to me

I just can’t take all the lies
I sit crying
u don’t know how many times

I live my life to the thought of having u
and I will stay here
waiting for that to come through

Even though I am pretty sure it wont
I will sit here cut away make
it too deep I kind of hope I don’t

But I know that this life it killing me
and that I just really wanna
just be free

So I need my friend the knife
so that right now
I can end my life