In My Eyes

If you look into my eyes, you won't see smiles
You'll see someone who's in pain, someone who's faced many trials
You won't see a whole person, just bits and peices of me
I don't know who I am, or even who I want to be

In my eyes, the world around me is cold
Kids wise beyond their years, growing up and getting old
The child in me is crying, and feels like she's all alone
Her inner demons are silent, but make their presence known

If you look in my eyes, you'll see ripped and tattered places
At times I don't know who I am, and I don't recognize names or faces
The scars on my arms have meaning, just like everything else
They reveal my tears and my pain, they reveal my inner self

So I'll take that beautiful knife of mine
and make one more cut, just one more straight line
I smile a true smile as my crimson blood flows
so as you look into my eyes, wait for me to find you, then my pain will show.

this was one of the first poems i ever wrote, so please c/v/r...i really appreciate it!!!!!