Your a racist ass! i hate you your not my dad!

I can't f u k i n believe this
your not my f u k i n dad
i hate you so f u k i n much
you make me so bloody mad

you think you can rule my life
but no thats not YOUR say
how dare you boss us around
f u k man you will pay

you do nothing around the house
you want me to be in pain
you want me to get in trouble
your f u k i n driving me insane

your a f u k i n racist ass
how dare you say any of it
you got my mum pregnant
now she has to cope with this shit

your so f u k i n immature
mums always sad
why don't you just be nice
then i won't get mad

why does mum stand up for you
i did nothing wrong
your the one who starts it
and i just go along

i can't take this anymore
i always punch the wall
I'm sick of always feeling sad
i really don't want to fall

i wish i could walk out that door
and never ever come back
i wish i could have my say
i wish they'd cut me some slack

how do they think it feels
having mean people everywhere?
a knew baby on the way
mum not being fair?

i wish i could smack him one
show him what he's done to me
then maybe when he feels the pain
he will finally see

my step dad making me to blame
my dad not being there
daddy is always there for them
he doesn't even care

daddy used to be there for me
now he's one of THEM
i thought that he could save me
but he broke my trust again

i have no one to listen
theres nothing friends can do
they can't change how they treat me
they can only listen to you

i wish i could do something
to change the way things are
but as long as I'm in this house
things will get worse by far

i wish that he would go through pain
then he can feel real bad
for all the racist things he says
that makes me feel so sad

i don't no if I'll last that long
because all the time i cry
everyday of the week
i wish that i could die

I'm so sick of everything in my life, I'm sick of my mum yelling at me, my step dad calling me names and blaming me and being racist, the person i like telling me they like me then breaking my heart over and over and over again, i keep falling for it! my best friend who understands me telling me she will move to my school to be with me then changing her mind the day before, my dad standing up for my brother when my brother tells on me for stuff i didn't do, my step mum ignoring me and giving me dirty looks (also the step mum i have known since i was 4) i can't take this i don't no where to go or who to turn to!