One more tear

Growing weak.. And getting old..
But I dont really care..
Holding on is not the issue
Its letting go that makes me scared

Within the past few years
Youve become a part of me
Im so scared to let go..
That with out you I will be empty

And I know that I should want to..
Get out and finally move on..
But the pain I get from missing you..
Has been felt for so long..

Im scared to lose that feeling..
Scared to erase my pain..
I dont want to see the sunshine..
Ive liked dancing in the rain..

Looking at old pictures..
That are fading to all gray..
Wanting to be near you..
But always staying away..

Not knowing how..
To live without wanting you..
not knowing why..
I want to need you like I do

I wanna love you forever..
Im begging myself to..
It may be hopeless..
But I only wanna be with you..

So give me a reason..
To cry over you..
Hurt me again..
The way that you used to ..

I begging you..
To reel me in again..
To make me head over feet..
And then just be my friend..

Dont you understand..
How screwed up youâ??ve made me..
To want you to hurt me..
I need you to desperately

I wanna hold onto you forever..
Letting go is such a fear..
So let me keep the memories..
And let me cry just one more tear