Here is that feeling again..

Here is that feeling again,
I thought it was gone.
But man what sucks is,
I was so so wrong.

It is here and this time,
I think it is going to stay.
I wish that this feeling of depression,
Would just go away.

The last 2 days have sucked more than most.
I wish I wouldn't have started stuff with the people I hold close.

I didn't really start anything it just feels like I did.
I am so sick of crying and being sad.
I want this feeling to go away,
Am I crazy or just mad?

I love all my friends and my boyfriend too,
But what the heck am I going to do?

Is this hello,
Or this is good-bye for good?
Is it time for me to leave?
Or is it time for me to just do what I think I should?

I know so many it will be hurt and sad.
But it feels like all I do is make everyone mad.

I hate to upset people,
But I am doing it more and more.
I hate it I can't take it,
My arms are going to start getting sore.

The blood will start to flow,
And I will feel the pain.
Then all these tears will start flowing,
Like it is going to rain.

So is this good-bye?
Or is it hello?
Here is that feeling again,
And I want to not let it show.
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OK I am not sure if this makes since at the end but yeah..this is how I feel right now and I am trying so hard not to cut..Please comment and or vote..Thanks..
Crystal