Nothing Left To Live For

I walk along by myself
As I wonder why I'm here
What's the point in staying
When my loved ones aren't near?

Danielle's been gone for a year
She's somewhere far away
I used my knife to get to her
But something made me stay

Vanessa left a short time ago
She's where Danielle is right now
Again I tried to join them
But I'm still here somehow

Stephanie left and joined them too
She left at such a young age
All three of them gone, no one left
It has me in such a rage

Daddy's gone, but he's in jail
And that's where he should be
He deserves to live and die there
For everything he's done to me

Mommy's here, but her mind is gone
She's given in to everything bad
Drugs, alcohol, it's all she has
Another reason why I'm so sad

As you can see this life of mine
Isn't really all that great
Nothing I do makes my life better
And in the end it's me I hate

Cutting, drugs, all that crap
It's ruining my life more
It's not possible to better my life
To the way it was before

With all of my best friends gone
I have no more reason to live
I feel I should be giving up
I've given all I could give

Too many attempts for suicide
And I'm still here today
I wish that thing that keeps me here
Will just die and go away

It's as if something has grabbed me
And it just won't let me go
I just want to join my friends
I'll be happier than you know

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