Face of my own hate.

I hate you so much I swear,
Wherever i go you are always there.
I hate you so much, I say it eveyday,
I cant stand you but you never go away.
I hate you for a reason, because you are yourself,
Cant you just change and be somebody else?
I hate you so much that its giving me pain,
I hate you so much that Im going insane.
You make me cry causing sleepless nights,
The thought of you brings tears to my eyes.
Somebody please save me from this,
Because I am going crazy with it.
But no one can save me from this hatred in my heart,
I wanna die and you were the reason from the start.
Whenever i have something you simply turn it to nothing.
This is so bad that i am so sad.
Why do I have to go through this?
Why do i have top suffer from this s h i t?
I dont know so i cut myself and now i bleed,
Its your fault, its all been you,
But i cant escape you no matter what i do.
I want to kill you, thats all that i want,
And it seems thats the only option that i have got.
But its more then that and its so hard to do,
Because even when youre dead i wont escape from you.
You see, its just life and cruel fate,
That i myself am the face of my own hate.