Dont Know Why

I am so sorry i was born
for it was not my choice
but when i tried to speak
no one heard my voice

They all push me aside
and talk behind my back
they don't really care
how my life has been attacked

My heart burns inside and
its shattered too many pieces
When i cut my arm some
depression it releases

I am all alone and scared
of who i am, i have no one
who loves me or wants to hold
my hand

They all know of the scars but
they don't really care
my life has been to much
theres no more i can bare

My smile is so fake and
my laugh does not exist
When people look into my eyes
it makes me really sick

I cut my arm to make the
pain real, so there is
something that i actually feel

people mad at what i write,
they don't know of my fright
and when i try to all asleep
i lay awake and cry all night

Throwing up my fat
cutting my pain away,
taking pills to numb the pain
pill after pill, not stopping

Someone please help me
for i am near my end
i hate this stupid world
i don't want to be pretend

I am going insane! This is
not a f**!king game. Mu puppy
is the only one who even thinks
about me. He never lies to me
or has any doubts about me

I need someone to love and
who cares what i go through
cause I'm reaching my departure
its when ill say goodbye to you!!!