Fade Away

Scarred by a mistake I once made
I wish someone could rescue me from my guilt and my shame;
Come to my aide and carry my blame.

Isn't it amazing how one action can change your life?
Now, I will forever live with strife.
If I could, I would go back.
Make sure that I owned certain values that I had lacked.

I've never told anyone the real truth until today.
I hope he forgives me for the horrid mistake I made...I pray, I pray.

I have a hard time forgiving myself.
Somehow I wish I could pack these painful memories away, stash them up on the highest shelf.

I can't, there is no hiding.
I pray He's here; hope my life He's guiding.
I can't go a day without feeling shame.
A lost, desperate soul I became.

Oh Lord, please help in my time of need.
Please send me relief at great speed.
I don't know if I can live with this painstaking guilt everyday.

I feel like I'm screaming, but no one can hear my needing cries.
Maybe I'm all locked up, and the key is thrown away.

Will I ever come to forgive myself for this mistake I've made?
No, probably not. I'll just fade, fade away.