What do I feel for you?

Before when you confessed
I felt really dismayed
Didn't know what to do
Thinking I am being played

The way I cared for you before
Isn't like how I treat you right now
Before I acted cool with you
Now around you I'm a fearful cow

My mind is full of doubts
My heart is filled with fears
I couldn't help but show
My soul drowning in tears

But something's bugging me
Which I just couldn't figure out
Your closeness with my other friend
Is there anything I should know about?

But what I'm feeling isn't jealousy
No, it just couldn't be real
I am just a little nosy
This is how I really feel

The both of you are my friends
So if she falls for you
And if you feel the same for her
There's nothing I could do

Before this year ends
I hope I could realize
What my heart really shouts,
And if you're the man I idealize

Coz if I don't work things out
I would definitely regret it in the end
I might lose the one I love
Even lose my very best friend