From Her Window Sill

She keeps her head steady
But bowed in a trance.
As he screams in her face
That she'll never stand a chance.

He pushes her shoulder heavily,
She staggers but will not fall
He cocks his arm back and then forward
And she's down so quickly after all.

Tears are in her solid blue eyes,
As he kicks her in the head.
She doesn't want to think of him,
So she thinks of Mom instead.

And, even though she doesn't know it,
Her mom is with her friends.
She couldn't take the drama at home,
Because in real life it never ends.

But as she's out having a good time,
She abandoned her to death.
He rears his foot and brings it forward
All she knows is out of breath.

Suddenly she can't breath anymore
And for a second she lets her mind go
Now she realizes the pain she's in
The pain he'll never know.

She realizes in that instant
That she has finally had enough
Of nights where death tempts her so
And those nights of staying tough.

And once she fell unconscious
In the blood that made her drown
He looked at her, finally satisfied,
Smiled, then turned around.

Her eyes flickered open once more
As she heard the door close.
She looked around, still in pain
From his anger impelled blows.

She cries to herself quietly
Afraid to make a sound
Or before she could fall asleep
He'd come back to bring her down.

Poor girl, she just weeps and weeps
The tears of her goodbyes
Beneath the moonlight I see her,
Steadily standing and straining her eyes.

Then it's almost as if she speaks to me
And her words they hit my head
And last night when I was thinking of her,
I remembered what she said.

She said, "Look at what he's done to me"
She motioned to her body drenched red
"He's hit me and taken everything from me,
But I leave this world, loving him instead."

"Its easy to be angry with him,
Afterall he's put me through,
But if I can love what killed me,
Then maybe so can you."

"Please watch my mom when I'm gone,
Because I know how she'll react
She'll leave the house and never come back
Leave the car and her clothes unpacked."

"Please, hear me when I say this
Because its very important for me,
Don't blame my dad for what' been done,
Because there's much more than what you see."

"He's a very good man at heart, I know.
He just grew up thinking it was okay
To hit your daughter until she's gone,
He doesn't live in the real world today."

"Please don't hate him at all for this,
For what I'm about to do,
Because he's not holding the knife right now,
It's only me and you."

Her voice was barely audible to me,
Like that of a ghost I once dreamed,
I reached out to scream and refuse,
But she was farther away than it seemed.

I couldn't move, couldn't even object
As she reared her arm, then used the knife.
I was suspended in shock, too hurt to feel
As the girl before me took her life.

To this day, as I fall asleep,
And from crying, my eyes are red,
I think of the girl before my eyes,
Who loved her father instead.