When the clock strikes midnight

I strip my clothes of and reminisce
Of my awful past of yesterday
Oh the memories are black and white
No color but gray

I’m being careful pulling of my clothes
Trying not to touch where I’d been bruised
From this stupid house and family
That keeps me abused

Ever since my sisters death
When I was 7 years-old
My family’s lives have been all screwed up
I’ve been living in a world so humble and cold

If dad made me have sex with him one more time
I’d throw up out of all holes in my body
I’m sick of feeling violated and disgusted
So sick of feeling him inside of me

He allows his friends over to watch
The first time was when I was eight
He took me into his bedroom
After we came home from our so called “date”

Mom drove me crazy
She became a druggy and an alcoholic
Every night she’d wake me up
I had to take care of her when she was sick

At school I had all A’s and B’s
I knew I could get far with grades
I wanted to be an actress when I grew up
I was always the winner at the game of charades

But moms constant pressuring to do better
Drove me completely insane
Nothing I brought home was good enough
I was in so much emotional pain

She smacked me all the time for no reason
Then threw me in the basement
Where daddy had sex with me
On the hard cold cement

But see its New Years Eve
Each holiday I pray for a better upcoming year
But my prayers never seemed to be answered
I always end up with a bucket of tears

Now I won’t have to worry this year
This knife in my hand tells me more
All my worries will now end
When I enter heavens door

I leave my parents a note
Next to my naked body on the bed
When the clock strikes Midnight tonight
Your precious daughter will be dead