Confusion!!

I don't know what is going on
Or what I seem to always do wrong
Am I ugly
Or do I just not have what anyone wants
I feel like a disappointment to so many people
Why can't I be loved like everyone else
I get heartache and pain that has became the story of my life
I have learn to deal with that
I still hurt and cry for the feelings that I have
And wonder why I still can't have what others have
Maybe I'm not suppose to
Maybe I'm the one he sent to have a life without real love
I hate that I'm a person who holds back so many things
And when I finally let go I'm hurt from the get-go
I'm sorry that I cause confusion for people who are in love with someone and I still try to be theirs
Maybe that is my problem I go for the one's who have already given their hearts away...
But I'm sorry he's the one I have given my heart too...