This Day-A Last Goodbye Message To You

Dear H.,

This day I'm trying my best to lose you
I know it is not so easy but I must do
Then I am always suffering with my feelings with you
When I think of you
My heart is screaming inside
Wanted to say I miss you
Wanted to say I love you
But I'm not able to
Cause I decided to let you go

I hope I will overcome this time
And what I wish to forget your name
Not to recall anytime

I'm craving of you my dear
But I am fear
Fear to do the things again
Cause I could still feel the pain
The pain of love that you leave in my heart
I don't want to feel again that it hurts

That's the reason why I have to push you away
Even though it's hard for me
Even though I still love you
Even though it makes me sad and down the situation
But have to lose you my darling
So you're also free from everything
Like my love messages that's so much for you and really annoying

I know I was so insane
I know I was a fool for you
But now I realize that every thing were all an illusion
Maybe I was just disappointed?
Or that was all a way out of my frustration?

No.It wasn't just an illusion

That was love
And a deeper love I found in you
The sweetest love and passion I felt in you
That was the best experience I ever had in my life
By you I felt the true love that I didn't have before
I know I long for more
But don't worry this couldn't be happens again
Then it's time to say goodbye my dear
And the thing will never be turn back then
I'll leave you in peace now and forever

You know what? Until now I don't know
Why I fall in love with you
Why I like you so much
Why I'm addicted of you
Not only on your pictures
But also on your voice
I can't resist just a day without calling you
Because I want to hear your voice
I know it is not so good
I know I am disturbing you
But I can't restrain my feelings
Can't control my mind not to think of you
And hold my phone to call you
I know it is not normally
But have no other choice
I'm addicted of you and your sweet voice

But this day I decide to lose you
I decide to put every thing away
No more love spam for you
No calls, no short message from my cell phone anymore
I try to delete you slowly from my mind
I want you to go apart
So I'll keep you down on my soul
To heal the wound that you'd leave in my heart

Good luck and Goodbye my precious Sweetheart!