Take me as I am

Take me please just let me die
I no longer want to sit and cry
I can not eat, I can not sleep
I've even tried counting sheep
my blade went dull what shall I use
I'm out of knives, out of bullets
no matter how hard I try
you will never let me die
I tried taking pills, but they just give me chills
I tried hanging myself from a rope
but it snapped and broke
please tell me this is a joke
I slit my wrists, just like this
now I'm getting really pissed.