Don't Judge Me

Please don't judge me.
You don't know what I've been through.
My life is not something you want to see.
Just be glad your you.

Seeing that plane flying.
When the only person that loves you.
Is in there brutally dying.
Yea I was at the twin towers too.

Hearing your dad choke your mom.
Seeing her face turn blue.
Him throwing her down like a bomb.
Knowing their married only because of you.

Getting drunk and high.
To chase away the pain.
Knowing your not lucky enough to die.
Hoping your sane.

Holding in the all tears.
Because your supposed to be strong.
Ignoring all those fears.
Keeping it all inside for so long.

But I won't have to take it much more.
See how my sickness effects her.
Deaths knocking on my door.
Thank god for my cancer.