Comments : Eating away

  • 18 years ago

    by Pure Silence

    All I can say is... Well put. the inner struggle of many. Juls, I know we've had many talkes, but.. I really do need you to eat. I love you and I don't want to see you waste away. *hugs* I'm sorry if that was out of line but I worry about you...

    Jenn

  • Its so sad because I've been there. some of my friends are going through the same thing, so I'll tell you what I tell them, don't hurt yourself like this. I don't know you but I'm surethere are many people who miss you if you weren't there. Think of that. Your friends will love you whether your skinny or fat.

  • 18 years ago

    by Mona

    I think it's very brilliant that you used "life's fuel" meaing "food". Wow.. It's a beautiful poem, but I find it hard to comment on this one, since there is so much pain in it.

    I know you really gave it your heart, and it's fantastic. I just feel so sorry when I read this. But that doesn't help you in any way. So I really have no idea what to say..

    I had a friend with anorexia. I don't know if that's also the name for it in english. And I'm not saying you have it. Just a random story.

    She really struggled. She got over it now (thank god). Every time I saw her.. she would say; "I can't eat, I'm too fat, I don't fit in.. the society wants me to (blabla).
    And I would look at her, her eyes sunken so deep in her face, her face so pale, almost blue, her lips white.. her arms.. were just skin over her bones.. And I would wonder.. What the hell is going on in her mind. Does she really think she is "fitting"in right now?

    It's just a thought, that gets in your brains, and eats away every bit of respect you have for yourself. And you just can't get that thought out of you head anymore. You feel like this is something you have to do. Basically you are just killing yourself slowly. And no one understand. Cause no one struggled through it. (well most didn't)..

    And it's hard for a friend to understand. I just tried so hard to help her. I would sit next to her and just sit and cry, and beg her to stop it. Beg her to eat. She got so mad at me, that she never wanted to see me again.

    And right now, now that it's been a year a go. I wonder.. did she appreciate what I did? Now that she got over it, does she understand what I was trying to tell her? I just wanted her to be her. I loved her for who she was. Not that little stupid voice in her head telling her she was too fat.

    She was so beautiful. She lost everything because of that stupid voice in her head. She didn't manage to finish school... she lost her friends slowly.. And what was she gettin in return. Absolutely nothing.

    She could have died on me. She tried so hard to explain why she was doing it, and still I wouldn't understand. Because of the pain I was feeling inside.

    I didn't even want to hear it, nor understand it. I think everyone should respect there body. You can;t live without out. We would all love to have that perfect body we see on tv every day. But it's there job. We are here with 6 billion people on this earth, and how many have a body like that? Just the few you see on television.....

    Anyway I am truly sorry for all these things I have put in my comment. I was gonna delete it, but on the other hand .. I just let it all out I guess.. I hope you don't get mad at me. I'm really not comparing you to my friend at all, not saying you are sick AT ALL..

    Please do not misunderstand me. It's just that when I read this poem of yours it brought back some memories of an old friend. And that really made me think

    Which is positive.. Your poem makes people think.. so thats good.. Loved it sweety, well done

    Lotsaaa love
    -xxx-

  • 18 years ago

    by Mona

    ^^^Longest comment I ever gave.. I'm so sorry.. sorry sorry sorry

  • 18 years ago

    by azlan26

    Wow this poem spoke to me, I have friends that could relate to this
    Brilliant

  • 18 years ago

    by master of shadow

    This is a very well written and described peice

    5/5

  • 18 years ago

    by Bridgette

    Really really good. its very suprising how many people actually go through that and you described it very well. great job!