Back into the Dark

I don't know who I am anymore
The darkness hits me at my core
I can't help these thoughts racing through my head
They jumble together confusing what I have just said

I don't know how to survive in the f.u.c.k.e.d. up world
The bright beautiful wings I have been riding have curled
I can't seem to find my own way
I'm so lost I just can't stay

Crying sees like the best option right now
Talking to someone, I just don't know how
Crawling back into the darkness of depression
"I can't handle life" is my true confession

The mask I had taken off is slipping back on
I can't handle waking up and seeing the new dawn
I have failed miserably in life and love
And now I will go down rather than above

Life keeps kicking me when I am down
I watch as my blood seeps into the ground
And I am so confused as to who I have become
Because all I see is selfish little scum

I can not help anyone at this moment in time
It seems I have lost everything of me and mine
I have to find all of the scattered and torn parts
Before I tear and shred anyone else's hearts

It is my fault and I will accept all blame
I will even take with me the horrendous shame
I can't live on like this much more and that's why I'm calling out to you
Because I need you now and I need to know what to do