My Demon

I have a demon inside me
In my soul where he resides
Keeps me fearful and in check
As he dominantly strides

He keeps his distance
For most of the day
Until he feels your closeness
Then pushes you away

Dont feel unloved tho
Your not the first last
This demon haunts my future
As well as all my past

I've dealt with stronger forces
Yet his hold on me is tight
I've felt so afraid at times
His darkness hides the light

He keeps me fearing heartbreak
As if he knows i cannot bear it
He's pushed every man out of my heat
Who he mite think would tear it

I promise one day I'll win the fight
Though its hard to tell at all
Cause I'm starting to get scared again
As again i start to fall

Love or commitment
Choose either as his title
I only know that now I'm scared
Relief from this is vital

I have a demon inside me
In my soul where he resides
So hard to knock his guard down
As he dominantly strides.