Confusion of Love

I'm so tired of love songs
So sad and slow
My poems no longer have flow
My girlfriend left me
She said she still loves me
But to her its for the better
Now I don't know what to do
I should move out of my house
Go back to drinking
Back to drugs
Back to my deadly addiction
One of cutting my wrist
But I'm sick of all the tears
There's so many fears
Am I lost in a sea of faces
Or lost in translation
Until now i was back to normal
I never had a dream come true
Now i never will
So does she love me still