Again

Running around,
trying to get ready,
hurrying to finish,
heart beating steady.

Slip on my shoes,
and I'm out the door,
turning back now,
is an option no more.

I'm in the car now,
I'm on my way,
oh my god,
what more is there to say.

My chest is shaking,
hands are weak,
oh my god,
I can barely speak.

We pull in,
I think we're here,
nope, false alarm,
we're at the store, but we're near.

I put my gum in my pocket,
once again we are off,
my cell phone rings,
I'm too breathless to cough.

Yellow light,
now turns to red,
we stop the car,
so much running through my head.

Red light,
now turns green,
my house and destination,
somewhere in between.

Stomach hurts,
it's actually in pain,
my heartbeats the only noise,
then my cell phone rings again.

Oh dear lord,
I can see the big sign,
I am arriving where I was going,
and then I see the line.

I step out of the car,
my knees to weak to stand,
I feel like I'm on water,
But I am indeed on land.

I walk over to the crowd,
anxious to go in,
I stand with strangers,
if this was a game I wouldn't win.

7:00 finally comes,
they open up the door,
we all pile in,
I am nervous no more.

I hand the lady my money,
I handed her a five,
I glance up and see him,
I'm just glad to be alive.

My stomach hurts again,
a new surge of fear,
I see him with her,
and I feel a single tear.

I am so hurt,
and so scared,
I want to die,
I don't want to be compared.

I want to leave,
I want to go,
I don't want to stay,
I don't want to know.

He comes over to me,
I wipe my eyes,
I fake a smile,
to hide my cries.

He asks a question,
he asks me to dance,
he says don't be shy,
as he takes my hand.

We dance together,
until the song stops,
he lets me go,
and away he walks.

Again I am sad,
it was all make believe,
he was playing me,
getting ready to leave.

No, it was real, he comes back,
and asks me for one more,
I feel my heart stop,
and him I adore.

He holds me close,
he holds me tight,
even when the song ends,
we stand together, it feels right.

It was perfect,
it was fun,
I'm nothing special,
but he acts like I'm the one.

He doesn't even glance at her,
he never looks back,
he holds my hips and we walk out,
there is nothing he does lack.

A perfect night,
a perfect ending,
a perfect dance,
even though we were pretending.