Missing you

Into this place I pull away, maybe for just a few minutes today
To sit with my thoughts and figure it out
You cant ask me questions I don't know how to tell you all about
How I reason and get rid of my doubts

I always ask the question
Why why did Uriah have to die
Why did you take my brother home
Why did you take him his feet the earth never to roam

He would be 3 years old 10/12/06
Why all these years did we have to miss
To recall the memories it hurts a lot
On this subject theres a lot of thought

All these people tell me that they're lives suck
That they're lives they would rather chuck
They didn't get what they wanted
They tell me I cant understand pain

Don't tell me that
I don't know how you feel
You can never understand
I would have a 3 yr old baby brother
I would be his big sister constantly on demand

I miss him a lot
You'll never know how much
I wish at least we could stay in touch
I wish I could tell him I love him one last time

He left this life without reason or rhyme
I don't know why God brought him here then took him away
I don't know why I'm still here today
I don't know why theres so much pain
I don't know from life what there is to gain

All I know is I want to go home
I cant wait till I get to heaven
Till hes the first one I see
I cant wait till I can finally hug him freely

I cant wait to see him alive and well
Without any of the cords
Without nurses running this way and that at the sound of a bell
Till theres no hospital

Till I can go home
Till I see Jesus and Uriah maybe a little more grown

Don't tell me my life's perfect and theres no pain
Don't tell me Ive always had everything
And I have no reason to complain

I have a nice house
A roof over my head
A good job and a nice warm bed
Those things are nice

But I would give them all in exchange
For the sound of little feet
Running In the rain
For a little brother that called me collie because he couldn't
Pronounce my name
For a little brother to hug me and have so much happiness to gain