What?

What am I supposed to be?
Living my life is hard enough
Without you telling me
What I need to be
You might as well
Burn me inside
All the pain and hatred
Finally pent up
Now I release it
Neurotically
Intensely
You wanna get to know me
I you have no clue
What I'm all about
You're lucky I don't
Come and beat My
Sense into you
I've been through torment
Pressure and pain
Enjoying the ride
Of life as a game
Dad is abusive so what?
I may take a couple punches
But I still thrive to be
What you cannot bear to see
Mom never stood up for me
Not a problem
I stand for myself
On my own two feet
You don't like it we can beef
How about I tell you how
My friend Died in my arms
Or how about watching
As your cousin pulls the trigger
With the gun aimed at his head
Watch My other cousin hang
Himself till he was dead
Not a pretty picture I paint
I can form these words
To show you the image
Of the living room
Where my friend was raped
She was so afraid
She left life behind
On the mirror
In blood she wrote
Why me?
Why any of us have
To go through so much
No one will ever know
So just live it
Or leave it!