Crawling In ThE Dark

by AhmadAfaneh   Nov 15, 2006


I wake myself up...i know something is wrong
People keep changing and i just keep following my heart
They tell me i should get along...i should stay strong
keeping myself away from falling apart.

The sun rises but i don't see the light
Because i am blinded by too many lies
My pain is growing with every sleepless nigh
With every silent scream from behind my eyes.

What I - as a kid - got in my hand
Beside looking myself in my room?
No more cutting my wrist can stand
So i have nothing...but living alone...in my gloom.

What is the use of staying awake
While -at last- i am seeing the same nightmare
I just cant do it...cant smile...cant fake
I just cant bear it no more and it's so not fair!!!

The bitter days keep passing me by
And me... cant close my eyes and dream of a better tomorrow
Can't hold my soul from getting dry...and die.
can't stop myself from living this sorrow.

Tell me why i am locked inside my soul ?
Why i just cant open the door?
And every time i climb the wall... i just fall
Gathering the pieces of myself that people tore.

Oh people!! you are so mean
You saw me hurt... you saw me moan
You saw me stuck in between
And you just left me all alone.

All i want is to release
All the pain i feel inside
I just wanna live in peace
With no more pain around to hide.

I wonder.. what happened to me?
My home is broken... my heart is taken...
And my life is being a total tragedy
So for how long "Being Alive" will still achin'?

No doubt why i love black and red?
And why this life doesn't no more make any sense
After all those tears i shed
After founding myself surrounded by too many rims

They say once u fall in love you'll forget your pain
You'll solve your problems...they'll just fade away
You wont control yourself...you'll go crazy...you'll be insane
But is it true? is it real? that what's they say

Yeah i am in love...yes i can feel it
And it's the sweetest thing I'll ever feel
But the word "Love You"...on my tongue just doesn't fit
Because what they say is not real...and these wounds will never heal

Now i wonder again about the person i became
About this life...when will it get better...not darker
No one is around to ask...no one to blame...
So I'll stay right here...crawling in the dark...looking for the answer.

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  • 15 years ago

    by XxJessicaxX

    WOW..this poem is awsome u have tonnes of talent.........the emotion in this poem is so overwhelming..

  • 17 years ago

    by unique

    Wow. such strong emotion in this poem. Great Job

    I know how you feel. If u ever need to talk or sumthin just email me or sumthing. Stay strong

  • 17 years ago

    by Kaila

    Wow...
    this poem made me cry...
    you have excellent talent...
    keep it up things will get better
    especially if you keep writing like this!
    i wish i could give it a 1000/5 but i guess a 5 will do
    *kaila*

  • 17 years ago

    by lostlllsoul

    Wow.. i could feel it, the emotion.. the poem is still provoking my thoughts after some time.. its like a poem that u sow had reaped over time.. very deep.. i liked it..

    I wont tell u to get along
    I wont ask u to stay strong
    But i'll be there holding your hands
    When the path jus seems too long
    I wont tell u to get over it
    cuz i know its hard
    i wont ask u to forget the past
    when the moments break your heart
    But i'll be there when you need me
    i'll listen with my heart not just ears
    i'll hold u and calm those tears
    no more crawling in the dark
    we'll climb over those walls together
    remember i'll be there for u
    we'll make it through any kind of weather