I Cant Do This

All my pain has numbed me
No longer can i feel
Sitting here, convincing myself
None of this hurt is real

By myself alone in my room,
Crying my self to sleep again
Trying to forget my day
And trying to block out all the pain

Still trying to be strong
Pretend Ive got thick skin
Trying to forget all this
Trying not to let them win

Pretending i doesn't get to me
Faking my smile and laugh
Letting all reality go
Putting everything in my past

Still praying not to remember
With everyone to please
Wiping angry tears away
Which fall down with such ease

People pushing me so hard
This pressure i cant take
Laughter is in my past
Even a smile i cant fake

So now I'm really breaking down
Cold, crying on the floor
Holding the blade to my wrist
Knowing i cant do this anymore

~Hey, Could you please comment and vote on this poem, I really felt like this when I wrote this, and it would mean alot to know what you think~