WIDDERSHINS

by Gary Jurechka   Dec 6, 2006


Though I appear dead on the outside
I'm screaming underneath
trapped in my memories and dreams
of tomorrow and yesterday

I spend too much time
thinking of memories good and bad
living in the past
ignoring the changes that have happened

And I wish I was 7, 12, 15, 20, 25, 30 years old again
longing for those years
but knowing I must move on

Yesterday begins tomorrow
begins today
I must keep going
for stagnation is self destruction

But the clock in my head
keeps spinning backwards
and I long to feel alive
like I once did

But I must let go
of those things I can't change
what could've been is gone
forever swallowed by nostalgia

I seemed so much surer
back then
all my dreams and hopes
so fresh and possible

In retrospective everything
seemed better and I forget
the misery and discontent
I felt back then

Time moves on
and so must I
I still feel alive
but must let go

I'm here now because this
is where I've brought myself
there is no tomorrow or yesterday
only this moment now today

I need to live in
the here and now
to accept changes already past
and become more than I am

Life is what we make it
so don't forsake it
by living in the past
with things that couldn't last

and time is now
not in widdershins.

December 2, 2006

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  • 17 years ago

    by ben thompson

    Very good write gary I enjoyed this one

  • 17 years ago

    by debbylyn

    Ahhh yes...sweet nostalgia. I've often wished to be 25 again....just with my 49 year old brain....guess we can't have it all! I thoroughly enjoyed this!
    Debbie

  • 17 years ago

    by Melissa

    Oh Gary, I really felt this piece deeply.

    "for stagnation is self destruction"
    ^^ beautifully worded and so true!
    I'm glad this poem ended with a sense of hope, realizing the problem is always the first step. I know I've been there, am there at times. This is an amazing honest piece of poetry, I love it!