I need a rainy day

I need a rainy day
Somewhere to waste away
Overwhelmed by reality
Not understanding what's inside of me

I need that rainy day
To come wash my pain away
Bogged down by unnamed feelings
Truth no longer that appealing

Blurred, distorted, and surreal
I don't believe in what I feel
My heart bleeds of things that are untold
This grief my life does start to mold

I'm sick of watching myself die
I'm tired of feeling the need to cry
All I ask is for some peace
A day free of worry, a mind at ease

However, mercy passes me by...
Without one backward glance....

It seems like time never loses a chance
To take over me...

So selfishly...

But all my pain, I do disguise
The truth will hide behind the lies
Nothing is ever quite what it seems
Because fact and fiction work as a team