Raped by trust

by Hailey   Apr 6, 2004


I sit and try to forget
What happened that fatal night
It changed my entire world
I knew it wasn't right

I tried to keep it a secret
I didn't want anyone to know
What you did to me
I wanted to make it go

I tried to hide it
From everyone i knew
But somehow you could see it in my eyes
No-one could believe it was true

My family tried to comfort me
Telling me that it would be OK
But no matter how much i tried
I couldn't make it all go away

It haunted me in my dreams
Never left me from that day
I couldn't live my life again
I didn't know what to say

I even tried to deny it
Tell myself it never happened
But it never seems to leave you
It just never seems to mend

It hurts not to want to be touched
By all the people who care
To be sick to your stomach
To see the look in someones stare

Never wanting to trust a guy
For what that guy did do
I know it'll never leave me
I wish it wasn't true

Ive thought about all the maybes
If only ide been smart
If only i hadn't trusted his mate
From the very start

Maybe oneday ill move on
And ill learn to deal with the shame
Of being raped by his friend
Learning to deal with the blame

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  • 19 years ago

    by xCrImSoNxTeArSx

    I'm so sorry to hear bout what happened to you Hailey. No one should have to go through that...I know the exact feeling you felt of always having that memory of that day in your mind...Someone very close to me has been raped aswell, they tried to kill themselves three times. I was the only one home with them, being so young and loving them I was scared and didn't know what to do.....Neways keep up the great work...
    mwa!!!

  • 19 years ago

    by FireCracker

    Hey .. This is an awesome poem .. its sad and i am very very sorry ... Im sure what happened will never leave your head btu its not your fault and you shouldnt blame yourself for any of it .... its nice that your family was there to help you through all of it .. your family seems great and im sure your friends and stuff have helped you too .. I am so sorry that , it really did happen but i just wanted to say that i loved your poem and i love all your poems ... keep up the gr8 work !

  • 20 years ago

    by Hailey

    THANX HANNA..Im really sorry to hear about your family..Ive always had such a great family and am very lucky and fortunate for that..I would not have pulled through what happened with out the support of them..It causes much heartache as i have an older bro the same age as the guy who raped me..It hrut my brother very much and he hrut that guy very very much for what he did to me..I dont belive 2 wrongs make a right but my brother loved me enough to stand up for me and os did all his mates who helped him beat that guy to a pulp..Well thanx.hey do u have a hotmail adress or msn..Ide luv to chat..We both seem like very strong people..Luv ya hails

  • 20 years ago

    by hana

    always remember actions speak better than words x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-

  • 20 years ago

    by hana

    np i had no support from ma family as i have not tld them n if i did my dad wud beat me more than he dus now so i anit guna but my mates n my boyfriend have helped me n gave support i am so much stronga cause of it n cuz ma dad hits me n cause ma mum is ill i am strong and can handle my dad i cant tell child services cause my mum cant support us so i remain strong...x-x-x-x

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