Secret of ours

Theres something inside me
Its my secret thats locked with a key.
With so much despair.
Does anyone even care?
Sometimes its the worst.
Sometimes I wanna curse
who gave me all this hurt.
But no one will ever know.
Like I know.
Shh its a secret.
You cant tell them.
Not a single one of them.
I think I was cursed.
Its the worst.
Heres something else.
I want to do some spells.
Just to help bring my spirits up
But its not enough.
Even though hes in prison now its not enough.
Some times i cant sleep
From all the pain i cant break.
Don't say "I don't know what I'm saying."
Cause you weren't even hearing.
I'm not sorry for what i did.
I was just closing the lid.
My life is gone.
But it doesn't matter you don't have to act alone.
You have HIM.
The BETRAYER.
Or do you not remember?
The one who took my innocence.
The one who broke me.
The one who killed my spirits long ago.
The one that hurt my bad enough that i took my own life.
The one you took back after i was gone.
You told him you didn't want to be alone.
You took him back thats what hurts the most.
You took him back even though i needed you the most.
So here you sit with tears in your eyes.
Reading my note that i left behind.
But remember mom what i told you.
This is our little secret.
So don't tell anyone not even him.