Never Let Go

One day I hope to be able to let go,
of the memories now passed.
One day I hope to move on with life,
and leave it all in the past.

But how can I let go of something,
I've spent my whole life holding onto?
'It's easy, just forget' they say,
they don't realise that thats hard to do.

I'm questioning myself these days,
and contemplating the reasons why.
Everytime I think about it,
it always makes me cry.

Just to see them once again,
is it worth the hurt and pain?
I guess it is but then again not,
I don't want to go through it again.

I hate how they are my weakness,
the only ones to bring my walls down,
but i love the conversations we have,
when we dont even make a sound.

I'm sick of the hurt from the memories,
and the times that didn't occur.
The 'what if's' and the 'maybe's'.
They only make me suffer.

I promise myself to let it go,
to try to go on without them.
But after everything I've already come through.
I couldn't have done it if not for them.

I will never let go.
Even though it hurts to hold on.
I promise.