Let me hide from everyone

Taking pictures,
And looking in mirrors
I was never good enough,
And I never will be.
Do you know what it feels like to be me?
5 years and maybe more,
Make over my body
Eat later,
Starve now,
To be beautiful to the bone
Burry be in a graveyard,
5"8 and 120 lbs,
I want to be and 90lbs or at least 100lbs for now.
I don't want help
Except burry me,
Burry me deep,
So no one has to see me,
See me fat and ugly.