My.living.anesthetic .for someone who wont ever read this

Theres always some reminder
Of what we used to be
In everything i do
You're all i ever see

In every single moment
You're in all of my dreams
Youre in those scars on my arms
Youre why i make all those screams

I have loved you forever
And i know its sounds pathetic
But you take all my pain away
You're my living anesthetic

I told you i was going down
You said "im going too"
Unless you let me pull you up
Taking my hand's all you need to do

I reached out willingly
But babe you lied
You let me drown
You just let me die

And here i am, lost and dead
You killed my heart, you know
You tell me you love me
I said dont tell me, show

I have some questions to ask
Why be with her, if you love me?
Why let me go then, if you want me now?
Can you stop confusing me?

Where did we go wrong?
We are always apart
But are still in love
And hold each others hearts

I think we love each other
Because we promised
Maybe you lied,
But i was being honest

And i want you to know
If even if you dont love me
Ill love you always
And dont pretend you dont see

See that im here
And ill always be waiting
Waiting for you dear
The only one who could save me

</3 this is more just my feelings randomly typed in a semi-rhyming pattern...soo yeah. tell me wat ya think!! </3