Stripped of my Senses

I sit in silence now, the walls are closing in some how
The darkness quietly swoops in and beings to surround
It's over I lost, I close my eyes but they wont open back up
My ears are shot and my body goes numb
I taste the filthy waste of what I've done
I've never told, of the sadness I hold, a burning smell enters my nose

I'm stripped of my senses I cant finish a sentence
Without the messages, running through my head
Now I cant get up, the ground begins to rot
And now I'm falling through a bottomless drop
I didn't realize at the time, I was to preoccupied
With what I've done with my life

My soul fades away, I'm now stuck with only my brain
That's lost any hint of hope or joy over the years
And there isn't one part of me, that thinks someday I could be happy
Because to tell you the truth I don't know how that feels

And with this cloud over my head, I have no idea what's been said
I might as well be in the other room, cause in the world of me
It always rains but I can see, the sun, buts its just out of reach
You could call it depression, but sadness is my obsession
And yet I can't cry, and believe me I've tried
But I cant conjure up the strength or the will
To make myself do something that would
Seem so much like giving up when I have only just begun
Crying solves nothing, but there's nothing that can be done

I'm stripped of my senses I cant finish a sentence
Without the messages, running through my head
Now I cant get up, the ground begins to rot
And now I'm falling through a bottomless drop
I didn't realize at the time, I was to preoccupied
With what I've done with my life

I'm stripped of my senses and for good reason
Took for granted all the things that I was given
And worse yet I did nothing with them
So I took all the great things that I had
And let them fade away when my life got bad

You can say that I'm weak and you can say that I'm dumb
I try not to dwell too much on what has already been done
I live by the days, and I apologize for the life that I waste
But what I would give for just one more taste