Googled Your Name

by IdTakeABulletForYou   Aug 30, 2007


Days to waste; So sad, but true.
Alone, no doubt; Eyes peeled for you.
Afraid to face the dark unheld;
With only a blanket between me and hell.

Searching so fervently for just a sign;
Seeking out lies so I can sleep tonight.
I am selling my soul to forget you are out there,
while tempted to drive off a cliff in my car.

Emptied of passion, while of you I'm drained.
Searching for any escape from this pain.
Sensing I'm doomed as I hide in my room,
all my lights I keep on:
I'm not safe without you.

Dreading what once was a pure-bred existence,
seeking a warmth in the frozen cold arctic;
I googled your name, just to rid of this pain,
but I kept pressing next, searching on every page.

I don't know how to live;
How am I to exist?
With a shiver, I wonder:
Can I get through this?
... With no warmth, with no touch,
without beauty and love;
How am I to survive?
How am I to get by?

Put my head on my pillow,
supress all the rage;
All the fear I fight off,
all the demons I face.

And without you to hold me,
-- With no one to assure me;
I don't know where to find such strength
to last for all eternity.

I'm alone; I am breaking.
I'm deteriorating.
Going down with each moment;
I can't take the pain.

It was love I was building,
and Love, you tore down.
It was hope I was holding,
and hope is gone now.

As the final incision is made on my soul,
I relinquish my heart and my eyes start to close;
I'm beginning to wonder what dreams I may have;
Yet, I close my eyes knowing
You're
Not
Coming
Back.

Thanks a BUNCH for critique given by Sherry Lynn!

Thanks for reading, as well. I enjoyed writing, and I hoped you enjoyed reading.
Please comment/vote honestly and accordingly.

Thanks again,
~Stephen White

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  • 7 years ago

    by Imperfection

    Great poem again it flows so well and there's so much emotion again. You are a really good writer look forward reading more

  • 16 years ago

    by Adelle

    This poem is amazing every word is necessary and every word brings something to the poem. 5/5

  • 16 years ago

    by XxsilencedxX

    Great poem, It flows so nicely and the name fits it perfect, I can relate to that poem in every way even in the part
    "I googled your name, just to rid of this pain,
    but I kept pressing next, searching on every page."
    again Great Job ^_^ 5/5

  • 16 years ago

    by The Pessimistic Peabody

    Great poem Leaderman, it kept my attention throughout, filled with alot of greatly expressed emotion that is very relatable. Flowed very nicely and straying from a single form added to its beauty. Definitely a 5

  • 16 years ago

    by Sherry Lynn

    As I told you earlier.. I think this is marvelous. You have so much talent and it shows.

    To be honest, I cannot even find my favorite part because it is all excellent and written so tenderly.

    Another awesome job sweetie...

    --Sher