Child of mine

I have to write to break this discouraging lull
my broken inspiration, wandering somewhere
he's lost and lonely
perhaps someone will find him

I don't know if I deserve him anymore
my inspiration
the child my mind has birthed
abandoned now

oh but God knows I need him and the child
I cannot survive without either
My man cant understand
so i wont tell him of my loss

tears in my eyes
missing my child
missing my outlet
missing my beauty of innocence and emotion and passion

all these things have gone with time
down to raw life
only God can love me
only Garrett should

unproductive
unresponsive
calling for my child
my child inspiration