Loss

I'm losing myself,
Losing every ounce of me,
No one left to see it,
No one left to care...

Why must I be so stupid,
To push everyone away,
To cry myself to sleep,
Just cause I prefer it that way...

Why must I lie when I cry,
Say it's nothing or that I'm not,
Is it fear of losing people?
Or fear itself alone?

No matter what I do,
Nothing can make it right,
I don't know who I am,
I don't know how to fight...

I really need help,
And guidance through this,
Because if not,
Depressed is what I'll be...