Alone

Sitting here alone,
contemplating what to do.
I should be off elsewhere,
but for some reason i can't move.

I can't shake the thoughts,
the thoughts trapped in my mind.
They're taking me in circles,
my direction i can't find.

I've been waiting here for hours,
just waiting here for you.
I searched to high heaven just to find you,
but to find you, i can't do.

So now you've got me thinking,
were you ever going to come
Or was this just a dirty trick
A trick to amuse you and to have some fun.

The stupid thing is i fell for it,
for every mumbled word.
So why do i still want you here,
despite the pain, despite the fear.

I'll tell you why i want you here,
though i know you don't really care.
It's because i still love you,
even though your love was unfair.