Dilemma

I smile when we talk
And then I wonder why
I thought this wouldn't work
And I didn't want to try

I'm happy when I'm with you
And I want you to be mine
But then I think of him
And he consumes my mind

I care for you; it's true
But he's everything to me
He's my love, my light, my life
And he's all that I can see

I had almost let him go
Almost ignored my weary heart
But now he knows the truth
And on this day everything falls apart

I don't know what will happen
But I don't want to lead you on
I don't know what to do
All rational thought is gone