Breaking

I pretend to be happy,
But that's not how I feel.
I try to focus on the pain;
It's the only thing that's real.

I am not all right,
And I try to be strong.
I'm not okay
As I sometimes let on.

I'm dying on the inside,
And they only see me smile.
But the sunshine is gone;
It's been dark for a while.

I drew a smile on my face,
Hiding my breaking heart.
I have so many things to say,
But I don't know where to start.

I feel so empty,
And I am so alone.
And here you wonder
Why my heart's made of stone.

I've been lying to myself
For ever so long,
That this will get better,
And I need to be strong.

I've led myself to believe
That I'll always be sad.
I know it's not fair to think
The end will bead.

I just feel so broken
And I'm all alone.
And all I need is
For someone to know.

2008