I've decided that this person that's inside of me wants to come out, but the problem is this outer person of mine won't let her. I swear i have mental problems and very few people understand that. I lost a very dear man to me and i have been trying to cope with it. This is one of the hardest things i've had to do and on top of that; i'm starting high school! My ex has moved one and that's very hard. I love him with all my heart and to see him go on just rips my heart further than it already is. I've realized that at a young age that life is NEVER what it seems. I want to prove people wrong but i can barely even make my own decisions. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO BE WHO I WANT TO BE; NOT WHO I HAVE TO BE! I'm very defensive, but also VERY persuasive. I could always use more help. So add me up on MSN and chat with me at Cassy_Monkey@hotmail.com or e-mail me at babyimalwayshere@gmail.com or message me on myspace and add me www.myspace.com/fallen_star_still_lost or chat with me on here.