Today was jess's first birthday
i wasn't even with her for it...

I was ready to end it all again
all these thoughts turning me insane...

I used to look forward to going to drama
it was the only subject i enjoyed it seems...

That night she never slept
that night she never ate...

I remember exactly where it was
i remember exactly who he was...

I wouldn't have all this pain
or all of these nasty secrets inside...

What he done was it wrong?
have i kept it silent too long...

I know she wants to help me
but i get the feeling she cant...

I know that i can stop self harming
if only someone would bring you back...

I don't know what to think of her anymore
is she my auntie or just another stranger...

I know you said goodbye but i didn't really hear
so i carried on thinking you were still near...

I remember when she gave me teddy fudge
and told me how much she loved me...