I am a burden
To you and to me...

These thoughts don't stop
When I'm loved or hated...

I must not love him
If he can let me go...

In my mind it's an ocean
My thoughts are the water...

The ocean used to mean fear
Unknown things lurked in the dark...

You see me
Like no one else does...

I am nothing to be ashamed of.
I did not choose the method of my conception...

I forget
The taste of your lips in the evening...

I just want to drown in your arms with my face...
I want to reach out half asleep and run my hand...

I yearn to feel you in my arms.
To roll together like clouds in the sky...

Crisp air, a clod morning
A fresh blanket of snow...

How beautiful you would have been
Darkest brown hair just like him...