When you look at me you see a smile...when I look at myself I see a frown under a fading mask...you see the scars on my arm but I see the scars within my dieing heart...you're killing me from the inside out!

I lay here as my blood slowly turns black and my heart turns to stone...theres no turning back, theres no fixing the pain you've caused inside....I'm already gone you just don't know it yet!

My feelings are disected and there is no family member, no friend or no specialist that can fix this pain except the one person that is on my mind and even she doesn't realise it yet! It seems I'm already on a crimsen road of lost hopes slowly fading.