hesitate
you hesitate(d...
you left me to
fend for myself...
And maybe someday, when I gaze at the stars,
I won't spend the night wondering where you are...
If I crack,
If I falter for a second...
And I am loneliest after midnight,
after my mind exhausts the possibility...
[It wasn't me].
Splotches of color like a...
My head is fuzzy, bubble-wrapped for safety.
There are no substances in my bloodstream...
6 months seems to stretch oceans-wide
while feeling like the shortest distance...
i should be in therapy right now.
“should” is an interesting word...
despair has me in a chokehold;
my lungs fight for a chance at survival...
I feel like I've lived a million lives in this...
traversed a hundred different landscapes and...
I protect myself from the monster
in as many ways as I know how...