If I bled a thousand apologies
Would you look me in the eyes?
If I let you see how it affects me
Would you wipe the tears I cry?
If I crumbled at your feet
Would you come pick me up?
If I showed you my scars
Would you tell me Ive hurt enough?

When I so desperately needed the soft caress words bring, the world fell silent. With one last attempt at self preservation i pen the sorrow of the partition in my heart letting each memory scream from the page. All I'm asking you to do is listen.

You brought out something inside of me
You were the one to set me free
I know you'll be the best man you can
I promise you, I understand
I'll think of you everyday its true
and every song i sing, I'll be singing to you
-from Soldier Song

If you die
They better tell me you fought like hell to survive
Or I'll never forgive you
For making me love you

Part of lyrics from my Soldier Song

I'll put on a brave face
Let you walk away
I'll write letters and I'll think of you
Everyday
And although I don't believe in him
Every night I'll pray
That I get to hold my soldier again someday

You're the addiction, that doesn't belong to me.

I dont know what half to listen to, no I dont know whats right. Ive let one half take over, just staying to that side. But it aches too much, the pain comes in waves. I cant just let this feeling stay. So Ill close off my heart tonight

Why must dreams show us, what we dont want to feel?
Why must they make the impossible seem so real?
A dream is a wish your heart makes
But how much wishing can one heart take
When everything youre wishing for
Everything you want to be yours
Cant

What he said cut through my heart
And there's a lot i want to but shouldn't say
It hurts so much to be so far apart
He said "Babe, we're getting way too close to be so far away"

I need you to tell me I can do this, even though it hurts and every aspect is hard to see, I need a "I'm there for you my love." I need you to tell me you'll never leave.