Sasha, firstly I'd like to give you my deepest sympathy for the lost of your niece, I will never be able to comprehend the pain that you feel as I have 2 nieces and 5 nephews and would hate to lose any of them.
Secondly, welcome to P&Qs.
Finally, a heartfelt, emotion filled piece that was well written. Nothing could come close to how you feel as we all grieve in different ways and I hope writing this helped somewhat.
All the best, Em