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by Ashley Jo

I thought I was happy
but I don't remember how that feels
I thought you loved me
But I know now it wasn't real

The deeper I got in
The more pain I felt
And I know what that feels like
With all the shit I've been dealt

Is it really too much
to want something true
I thought I had found it
When I found you...

Little did I know
Of the damage that would be done
In the beginning you were romantic
In the beginning you were fun.

But now at the end
I see what I could not before
You were in lust...
but I wanted more.

So here I am.
Angry and alone.
Even around people..
Even at home.

I learned to lie
and disguise my pain.
To hide my tears...
that I shed in vain.