Deeper meaning

by kristen   Jun 9, 2012


I haven't slept since Thursday
and I'm drowning in my bed
in an endless sea of drunken thoughts
and pathetic words I never said
I run myself in circles
trying to find a deeper meaning
to the empty shell
this living hell
some sort of sign that I'm not seeing

you say that our eyes are the windows to our soul
I've gotten pretty good at keeping both of mine closed
and if you catch me looking, all you'll find are two holes
but it's easier that way, I suppose

and I know I'm being ignorant
but ignorance is bliss
I've got a habit of disappearing
if there's nothing to love, there's nothing to miss
I'm not trying to be selfish
I guess I'm just a little scared
that I'll look inside
and come to find
that I'm too far gone to even care

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  • 11 years ago

    by Purple Rose

    I have to say that is a really interesting poem, Kristen. It is a deep poem that almost anyone can relate to :)

    "you say that our eyes are the windows to our soul
    I've gotten pretty good at keeping both of mine closed
    and if you catch me looking, all you'll find are two holes
    but it's easier that way, I suppose"

    ^ This is my absolute favorite part right here. I really like how you used the popular saying that "our eyes are windows to our souls" and how you went against it. It signifies that you don't want people to know what is really going on inside your head. However, why is that? Don't you want people to know what is going on? Don't you want people to help/listen to you? Or are you giving up because you don't really see a meaning in life? Many different conclusions can be drawn here...since you are the author only you know.

    "I guess I'm just a little scared
    that I'll look inside
    and come to find
    that I'm too far gone to even care"

    ^This is my second favorite part. This part is really full of emotion, even though you might not intend it to be. I can tell that you don't want to disappear, but yet at the same time you are tired of being treated the way you are. Too scared to look inside...interesting.

    Overall, this is an excellent poem, Kristen. I am glad that you started writing again :)

    Excellent
    5/5

  • 11 years ago

    by Dagmar Wilson

    This is very sad and emotional and coming
    from your heart. This is the way you feel.
    People look at us like we are being selfish
    what they don't understand is the pain
    we are feeling
    I think it is a cry for help
    I am going through the same thing
    5/5

  • 11 years ago

    by L

    Interesting write, about the idea about the windows and knowing the soul.

    I can relate somehow to this piece, it's really interseting and at the same time , it is sad.

  • 11 years ago

    by Rebecca Bentley

    Absolutely brilliant write! 5/5

  • 11 years ago

    by Valerie Cox

    I've been there and know where you're coming from. Old cliche (but true)- IT WILL GET BETTER

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