Shambles

My heart is in shambles
Alone in my complacent being
in what i thought
was a forever thing
nothing is forever though
time and change
seem to be forcing my hand
I have a dreading deep inside
And this raging thought
I don't want to be the one
To break something that can't recover

-But I'm at the end of my rope
At the edge of a waterfall
If I jump perhaps.....
The water will consume this
Me.
Maybe it'll soothe my aching mind
my breaking heart
And worn body
Keeping me safe from
This uncontrollable inferno inside
The one..
I caused this time