Lost My Way

I've lost my way
I can't keep up
the road is gone
it's all too much

I'm tired of trying
when nothing helps
I'm sick of crying
it's my personal hell

My life is gone
I left it behind
my thoughts keep wanderin'
I'm out of my mind

In the attempt to survive
I lost my hope
trying to manage
don't think I can cope

Look around me
all that I see
are all old friends
who don't know me

Look behind me
it hurts so much
I miss the past
I miss the trust

I had in those
I knew and loved
like my guardians
sent from above

Look to the future
it's worse than the past
a haven is there
don't think I can last

my strength is gone
my heart is too
all I have left
are memories of you

All who I loved
all who I knew
worryin' 'bout me
like you all do

I know I'm alone
despite what you say
I grow more distant
with each passing day

I hate that I'm weak
I hate that I stay
I'm ready to go
But I still only say

It's not the right time
it's not the right reason
I'll wait for the break
the change in the season

But I know in my soul
I won't say goodbye
till I see him safe
or I see her die

my body is worn
I can't catch up
my mind is tired
it's all too much

for one kid to take
yet I defy everything
I defy what sanity
just seems to scream

I know I may fail
I ain't getting stronger
I'm stubborn as hell
it won't last much longer

just tryin' to live
just tryin' to breath
just tryin' to make it
till someone saves me...